I get emotional whiplash every time I remember I'm trans in the US
This was gonna be a hopefuel post. Ever since starting HRT, moving out and becoming fully stealth in college, my life is so fucking good. I have so many friends and I love my classes and extracurriculars and I go to the gym every day and I am treated as a normal (ugly, inferior) guy. I party every weekend and I do things I enjoy. I am in multiple all-male groups and I don't even need to think about trans shit anymore because I am just living my life and it is good. I wake up happy and I go to bed happy. The worst part about it is having to wear a painful binder and also a sweater no matter how hot it is because my chest is too fucking big. And also feeling eternally inferior and knowing I will never be able to truly live a normal life. But I can ignore that shit because everything else about my life is so GOOD and NORMAL. And then ever since Trump has gotten into office every night I check the news and see "Trump signs executive order saying that you're gonna fucking die because we all want you dead so fuck you". If all this shit gets passed it is going to ruin my life. And I'm one of the luckiest ones because at least I'm in a place right now where I'm okay. But if I can't get surgery I'm genuinely going to rope. I haven't been suicidal in MONTHS I used to be so depressed and suicide-obsessed every day but HRT and going stealth fucking saved me. I will genuinely kill myself if I have to detransition I am not even exaggerating. It would completely ruin my life. Why the FUCK can't people just mind their own fucking business. We are not hurting anyone by getting hormones and surgery just let us mutilate our bodies if we want to. Holy fuck this feels unreal everything Trump is signing would ruin every trans person's fucking life. I don't know what to do because there's nothing any of us can do. Yeah I guess I could protest or something but that will do nothing and also ruin my life in its own way by telling people I'm fucking trans. I'm going to fucking tweak holy shit.