just talked to him,, it didnt go well :(

im too much of a coward, i started crying,,

he got home from work, we hugged and talked about his day, made some jokes, sat down and started talking abt the future. i didnt want to talk about it tonight, but in the moment i mentioned us being banned from sports, i couldnt stop myself from continuing on.

'as long as your here with me, ill make sure nothing bad happens to you. and if it comes to it id be willing to move to canada with you. but i wouldnt really like it, and i dont think things will ever even get that bad for that to happen you know?'

i said i cant let myself feel safe when things are getting worse every day

'well things always get worse before they get better. besides nothing bad is gonna happen here, i promise.''

i brought up the research date being erased, legal protections disappearing, and some trans people being blocked from leaving the country. i said that things are going to keep getting worse, and that was feeling terrified and brought up the democratic party turning on trans people and being too incompetent to win another election the way they are.

'you dont know that. people just arent going to let this keep happening. what, do you think theyre gonna start putting people in concentration camps?' youre being rediculous. come on.'

i brought up guantanamo bay and how hitler did these same things before getting total power. 'youre rediculous. you think theyre gonna you in a camp in the middle of kentucky?' when i brought up gay conversion camps he didnt even know what that was.

'but theyll never let that happen in washington.' but how will i feel safe when its happening right across state lines? 'theyll never be allowed to do that, nobody thinks that way. were not in the 1940s everyone knows better. the world is too civilized for these things to ever be allowed to happen. youre being so defeatist right now, i cant believe what im hearing.'

i can feel myself shrinking. 'half the country didnt care when elon did a nazi salute. people are saying hes starting a coup. people who want the world to be that way are holding the most powerful seats in the country.

'you dont know hes staging a coup even if he was wed stop that from happening' he just gained access to the treasury. we dont know what hes going to do..

'but you dont know that. you dont know fucking anything! youre being so stupid,'

i couldnt look at him anymore,, i just his behind my hands and i couldnt stop myself from crying.. i dont like when people see me cry

'are you serious? dont do that again, come on.'

he sighed in frustration and left the room, coming back a few moments later to grab his phone, said nothing and then left again. i just heard him hitting the bong

i dont. know what to do

im too much of a coward, i started crying,,

he got home from work, we hugged and talked about his day, made some jokes, sat down and started talking abt the future. i didnt want to talk about it tonight, but in the moment i mentioned us being banned from sports, i couldnt stop myself from continuing on.

'as long as your here with me, ill make sure nothing bad happens to you. and if it comes to it id be willing to move to canada with you. but i wouldnt really like it, and i dont think things will ever even get that bad for that to happen you know?'

i said i cant let myself feel safe when things are getting worse every day

'well things always get worse before they get better. besides nothing bad is gonna happen here, i promise.''

i brought up the research date being erased, legal protections disappearing, and some trans people being blocked from leaving the country. i said that things are going to keep getting worse, and that was feeling terrified and brought up the democratic party turning on trans people and being too incompetent to win another election the way they are.

'you dont know that. people just arent going to let this keep happening. what, do you think theyre gonna start putting people in concentration camps?' youre being rediculous. come on.'

i brought up guantanamo bay and how hitler did these same things before getting total power. 'youre rediculous. you think theyre gonna you in a camp in the middle of kentucky?' when i brought up gay conversion camps he didnt even know what that was.

'but theyll never let that happen in washington.' but how will i feel safe when its happening right across state lines? 'theyll never be allowed to do that, nobody thinks that way. were not in the 1940s everyone knows better. the world is too civilized for these things to ever be allowed to happen. youre being so defeatist right now, i cant believe what im hearing.'

i can feel myself shrinking. 'half the country didnt care when elon did a nazi salute. people are saying hes starting a coup. people who want the world to be that way are holding the most powerful seats in the country.

'you dont know hes staging a coup even if he was wed stop that from happening' he just gained access to the treasury. we dont know what hes going to do..

'but you dont know that. you dont know fucking anything! youre being so stupid,'

i couldnt look at him anymore,, i just his behind my hands and i couldnt stop myself from crying.. i dont like when people see me cry

'are you serious? dont do that again, come on.'

he sighed in frustration and left the room, coming back a few moments later to grab his phone, said nothing and then left again. i just heard him hitting the bong

i dont. know what to do