The hardest part to accept is that they don't want to change

My Q clearly has no interest in changing.... ever. He has tried, but not very hard, but it will never stick.

I cant accept that he would rather have a life alone with alcohol over me. After 8 years together. And all of the things I've endured because of the drinking

I asked him the other week if drinking seriously makes him happy. And he said, yes it does. Which I don't really believe, but who knows anymore

Why is he OK with living a life where he gets so drunk that he pisses all over himself. Regularly

I don't get it. I'm a living, breathing being who's loved him through everything and been there, and I'm not worth more than a bottle of rum

I understand it's an addiction. He's not always in control of it. It's more the fact that there is zero effort to even try to do better.

Like I guess I'm not worth it. What we have. It isn't important. Just drinking copious amounts of alcohol every day is more important.