therapist ended the session 30 minutes early because i was having trouble expressing myself

Now I feel abandoned (stupidly), and also a bit confused.

This was my second appointment with this therapist (via zoom). The first session I was in the right headspace to talk fairly honestly about myself and what I was looking for, but today I found it much more difficult. She also didn’t really ask any questions, but just kept waiting for me to speak. I had already expressed that I often have trouble expressing myself without guidance.

I talked tor a bit about a weird emotional state I had for a few days (which I think may have been hypomania? but since I had brought up AvPD in the prev session I didn’t want to mention it by name and sound like a diagnosis seeker). She suggested some specific coping skills for my anxiety. Then she waited for me to bring up another concern, and I said again that I have trouble talking about my feelings when I’m not actively feeling them. I was trying to talk and not just freeze up, but I could only do so much without her leading me in any way. Then she just said bye, see you next week, and ended the call.

She seems like a good therapist overall, but now I’m falling into a weird bitterness/self-hate spiral, as if I was somehow rejected by her.