I feel so hopeless

With the gettysburg incident, and how people are blaming him saying he wanted the n-word carved into his chest, to the rise of racism. Marcellus williams and javion mackgee being lynched. The shit I've seen online, stuff fellow teens in my school have said around or to me, the racism I've personally expirienced (one specific event that almost killed me). I hate it here, I don't want to be here anymore, I don't understand why they hate us, what did we ever do? People go online they say that my culture is bad, and that we're all stupid, and that they wish people like me were slaves again...why? I feel so scared, it makes me hate all white people but I don't want to hate anybody I don't like hating people. You can't even trust the liberal ones, all of them seem to see me as lesser, for no reason. Everybody hates us, including asians and arabs and latios and even natives. It's so bad, I'm crying right now I'm just a kid shit shouldn't be this hard. I feel like no matter what I'll just be seen as black to people, never as who I am inside too.