Anyone ”accepted” that they’re ugly and life has been a fog since?

I was in my first relationship which really took a toll on my body dysmorphia. Then I decided to ”accept” that i’m ugly and eversince then my life has been a fog, no ego, no coping just nothing. I don’t even defend myself in arguments anymore or put up with people, it really killed my self confidence for good. I am barely a human anymore.