SERIOUS ADVICE ONLY- POORI LIFE KA SAWAAL HAI

2021 mein covid ke time pe i graduated from DU. Apna koi goal ya sapna toh kuch tha nahi as such. Mumma papa ne college khatam hone ke baad company secretary ke exam dene bola toh maine haan mein haan mila di. Jump to 2022, ghanta kuch nahi ukhda mujhse cs mein. 2023 mein socha mba karte hai. Uss din raat mein sone gayi hi thi ki agle din nov bhi aa gaya aur hona tha vice versa magar cat exam ne mujhe phod diya. 2024 same shit. Hasne wali baat ye hi ki i have been a good enough student all my life, 10th-89.3 12th-88 grad-7.4 magar 3 saal ho gaye ghar baithe baithe, life kahi aage hi nahi badh rahi. I really really really really reaaaaaaaaaaally want to experience those 2 years in an IIM. Galat hai kya? Iss sab ke baad bhi ye sochna? Mummy papa roz pooch rahe hai ki kaha se calls aayi, kitne paise lagenge "tu bata, hum sab intezaam kar lenge" kaise bolu unhe ki yet another year papa, i am so sorry. I'm thinking of taking up a job aur iss baar kam se kam ek baar sacche dil se mehnat karke vapas paper du. Magar darr lagta hai ki vapas wrong decision ho gaya toh. Aur i will have to score fucking fantabulous this time to even get a shot. Will I be able to ya fir dubara agle saal ye post likh rahi hongi? Madad kardo dosto, dimaag bhot fucked up hai.