DAE struggle with eating at other people's homes?
I moved out of my mom's place about eight years ago. Growing up, the kitchen was one of the worst rooms in the house. There was always expired and spoiled food and dirty/moldy dishes. The dishwasher broke at some point, I think I was 10 or 11, and mom refused to get it fixed so dishes were done by hand. My mom was the only one to do the dishes because she would just get upset whenever my brother or I did them. She complained when we didn't do anything and she complained when we attempted to help. Dishes would be cleaned as needed, like on the rare occasions that she decided to cook or to warm up food, but dishes would typically pile up and get moldy.
As an adult, I've noticed that I struggle with eating at other people's homes or eating other people's cooking. I struggle with the thought of them or their kitchen not being clean enough and the food being bad. Most of the time I'll force myself to eat, but I won't always finish it because I can't stop thinking about what if the food is contaminated or wasn't cooked properly, what if they're kitchen and kitchenware wasn't cleaned properly, what if they're not clean enough, etc. Does anyone else deal with this?