I found someone that makes me feel alive

I don’t think I’m in love yet but I know I’ll get there as this progresses. It’s so beautiful. It feels so natural, like things are falling into place. I’m really scared of messing things up just because of who I am and because of what I’ve experienced in the past. All I know right now is that he makes me feel alive. I can’t help but think of when I took the kids I babysit to Disneyland. They lasted all day with full energy, 8am - midnight. Their parents told me the only reason they had energy all day was because of me. That I fueled them, they were so excited to spend time with me. That’s how I feel around him. He fuels me. I feel giddy and childlike and happy. I don’t want to tell anyone close to me just yet because I want this to continue on organically and without the influence of others. Anyways, I feel alive and I’m also really scared.