Am I weird for cuddling my pillow?

Hey, I'm new to Reddit so this is all very weird for me (especialy because I'm actually from Germany). But there has been sonething in my mind for a long time. I crave desperatly for affection since I'm getting bullied in school (and I mean really bullied) and I seek that affection in a pillow. It feels soo good to have that thing in my arms and close to me, but I think it's starting to get addictive. Please help me...