this sucks (rant)

just registered for the January test even though I have like no time to study before then. I took the test June 2022 and again Nov 2023 and my score only improved 2 points after months of studying. I feel defeated but I need to apply this cycle because my parents won't let me take another gap year, but this will be my third time taking the test so I really can't fuck up. I was PTing around low-mid 160s but my score is much lower and I thought the test (esp LR) was way harder than other PTs. not sure what to do except grind for the next couple of weeks, but it sucks because I probably will never break a 165ish and by January it'll be too late to get accepted to a T20 school, so I honestly have no idea what I'll do. I don't really have the intention of going into big law but still want to attend a good school and I know I'm smart enough to get there, this test is just kicking my ass. I feel like my whole life (or at least the next 4 years) got up ended in a matter of seconds as soon as I checked my score, and now I have to re-plan. this sucks!!!!