Ending it all..

How many times a day do you think about doing it? Well I think about it so many times I’ve lost count, life is so dull and meaningless it’s not like I don’t pray I do, I do running daily and work out I have a great physique but none of this is helping every time life gets a lil better it gets 2x as worse after, life just keeps kicking me in the fucking nuts, and I can’t focus on anything because of this. Life is an existential dread. And I’m too tired.