Mid life crisis

In last 6 months I was facing so many hurdles regarding my uni admission and career etc and it has been so tough Mistakes over mistakes, hurdles over hurdles 😔, the only thing in my mind was why is it happening to me ? Is it because of my naseeb or taqdeer ? Or is it because of my own wrongdoings? Actually the university admin staff misguided me and the day of admission I got to know things properly from another person maybe it was my mistake to believe them That whatever the thing I was planning,it was going away from me and my plans got failed Usually I'm very optimistic but this time things that happened they were totally opposite of my plan Did that happened due to my mistakes or it was just "naseeb" ? What should I do ? I prayed istikharas too Should I settle down for the thing life is offering me ? Or should I blame myself and keep going for the thing I exactly want ? Or is this the reason that Allah wants something else for me and my plan is different 😞