It’s so sad…

Random rant but it’s so heartbreaking to think about the fact that Helena is so repressed, and her inner self has been so thoroughly stifled by her upbringing, that her innie is this wildly different from her outie. She is literally at war with her inner self to the point where each is trying to KILL the other. There is a war raging inside her. The fact that she is so morbidly curious about Mark. S after seeing the kiss shows us that she has never experienced anything close to real love. I know Helena is evil AF but she really is the product of her environment and I feel pity for her