I am so fake

 I had no signs of gender dysphoria as a child. Sure, I wanted to be friends with boys because I thought they were simpler than girls and I had a couple "masculine" interests like archery and swordplay. But other than that I was pretty feminine. All the things I can come up with that fall under dysphoria can be simply chalked up to being a socially isolated autistic girl. I'm literally a classic example of rogd. Found out what being transgender was through the internet at a young age, only really started being uncomfortable with my sex characteristics after that.

 I dont know how to get out of this. I cant imagine myself as anything other than a man. I can hyper feminize myself all I want but I will just maladaptive daydream about being male to cope. I cannot for the life of me drill it into my brain that Im just an unsocialized girl with ocd who spends too much time lurking these subreddits, becoming infatuated with analyzing everything about myself.