TOTGA

Okaay let me just yaaappp.

I recently broke up with the person I thought I'd spend the rest of my life with. We even already prepared our babies names.

I can't blame her for leaving me after the heartbreak I caused her because of all the bad choices I did for I guess the past 2 years.

I know she deserves the best. I didn't give her that because I was too comfortable with what I have. But the only thing here is that I lost my self while loving her. I became someone I didn't know. Which put me in a bad place.

Right now, I'm at this stage where I'm rebuilding from scratch. But why is it that she's still my motivation? I'm starting to believe that I might be obsessed with the idea of her.

I message her from time to time because I just can't seem to accept the fact that she just don't love me no more.

I caused this. I deserve to have a bitter taste of all the consequences of my action. I lost a good woman. A wife. A bestfriend and everything in between.

Sometimes, when I'm drunk, I imagine coming home to her at my place. With that bright smile.

I've been through a lot of breakups but this one I don't think I can accept defeat yet. She's Worth fighting for. I just need to know what i want, fix my self. Heal. And be a better person for her.

I love her still. Forever and always.