I’m scared that Islam will end up being true.

There are things in Islam that I strongly disagree with and find inhumane, but when I think about becoming an atheist, I realize that if I’m wrong and Islam is actually true, I could end up in Hell, which is terrifying. So, I wonder if I can pray and do ONLY good just in case Islam is true. This world is so scary, and I don’t want to take any chances.

For example, I can do good deeds like feeding the poor (helping the world), being honest (preventing mistrust and deception), fasting (which is good for health), and praying (which can serve as meditation and exercise). These actions are beneficial both in this life and, if Islam is true, in the afterlife as well. At the same time, I wouldn’t follow things I believe are harmful. I could even wear the hijab only when I feel unsafe at night while walking alone.

So, can I practice parts of Islam just in case? If I follow the good aspects that bring value to my life and are also seen as good in the religion itself, then I can benefit in this world while keeping the door open for a better afterlife if it turns out to be true. The uncertainty of what happens after death is terrifying, and I just want to find a balance that gives me both peace and security.