This red helmet is a curse

Started a new HCIM, had so many checklists in the wilderness to cross off - whenever I died, I died. Cool. No harm in starting out a red helmet anyway.

I finished DS1. I finished Monkey Madness. Fuck me, I’ve just done DS2. The red helmet stays, and my wildly checklist remains untouched.

Every log in is now a focused task. There’s no such thing as ‘afk’ for me anymore. The concept doesn’t exist. I want to be a grey helm - I don’t like it here. I scream into the void: but I’ve made it this far! And yet what for? Sweaty gameplay.

I hate this. Someone kill me in a PvP world so I can be free. Alas, you’ll never find me there.