Stopping all meds successfully?

Has anyone ever come off of SSRIs permanently after being on them a long time and had a POSITIVE experience??

I've been on some sort of psychiatric drug since I was about 18. I'm 38. I honestly can't remember much of my life when I wasn't on them. I DO THINK I was having panic attacks from a young age. Everything is muddled. And I can't tell if the meds have caused MORE damage or good.

I'm currently on Prozac 8mg since 10mg made me feel insane (ears ringing, no sleep, exhausted). I've been on it for 11 weeks after switching from lexpapro. I feel like i can't live like this anymore and I feel like total shit. . I'm at the cusp of either going back to lexpapro since I never felt this awful on that drug. Or coming off completely but I'm petrified of the side effects, intrusive thoughts and panic attacks.

Helppp