Don’t let porn ruin your amazing healthy relationship with your amazing woman!

For the past few months I started having a warped image of my gf to where I would go into her phone and look through her photos to try and find old pics and nudes she may have sent an ex that she forgot to delete or looking through old text conversation with an ex to get off on, creating this disgusting cuck fetish in me that I never had before.

I reflected on what the issue could be and realized that porn was messing with my head more than I thought. So I quit PMO.

The withdrawal however was insane. Quitting something that’s been helping me cope mentally for since I was 10, I’m 23 now, led to an extreme amount of anxiety and I was never one to have anxiety. General fears I had in my relationship and relationships in general were amplified. To the point I would contemplate breaking up with her because I thought she was the problem and I’d rather be alone. I wouldn’t sleep and felt shaky to the thought of that because my heart loved her so I couldn’t rationalize these thoughts.

But what’s interesting is when you look at the withdrawal symptoms of an addiction it was very similar to what I was going through with porn.

I eventually went to a psychologist and realized the amplification of the thoughts because of withdrawal allowed me to come to terms with childhood trauma and mental health issues that I had buried that led me to PMOing in the first place. To where I’m addressing them now. Trauma that I didn’t even think were a big problem but we’re subconsciously affecting me and my view of women paired with the porn use too.

If I kept watching porn I would still be numbing and burying those feelings in exchange for the dopamine rush and would’ve never addressed them.

Moral of the story, when withdrawing from porn and you start getting insane anxiety and start overthinking with irrational thoughts, DONT make any major decisions. Your brain isn’t being rational. I generally see myself as a logical person until I couldn’t rationalize my thoughts. Now that the withdrawal symptoms have faded, I no longer have that crazy level of anxiety anymore. And no longer feel like breaking up with my gf in fact I’m starting to feel more in love than I ever have. Whereas before I never really understood what it was like to be in love and at times still struggle but she’s very supportive.

If you’ve got an amazing woman hold on to her. Don’t let porn take that away from you, it’s taken enough.