how do u take yourself back?

I feel bad for myself. I had a long term boyfriend who cheated on me last year, and up until now, i can still feel how much I’ve changed. During our relationship, he changed from a soft guy, to a guy that objectifies me, and I never noticed it until he left me.

I was the kind of person that holds v!rg!N!t¥ very high and I believe that the first time should be special. However, he managed to take that away from me (he SAed me), and now my perspective changed about $*x, that it became this casual thing that you do when u feel lust, because that was the only thing he made me feel during the rs.

I badly want to take myself back, but I fear the innocence will forever be lost. I want to experience to be looked with love, because I was only looked at with lust.

How do you take yourself back from years of SA? How do you rebuild your principles? How can you not be afraid to meet new people and be objectified again?

Pls help :/