All it took was 1 drink

I quit for over 100 days and was doing fine...Xmas work party comes along and that voice in my head that everyone talks about said "hey you've got this and come on it's Christmas you can at least have one"...

I then spent the following 2 weeks progressively drinking more and more often to the point I ended my evening last night sat alone in my car in a supermarket car park drinking a bottle of wine...literally how pathetic.

I've thought about this all day and it's just crazy how dangerous alcohol is and that the brain just reverts back to being an alcoholic so seamlessly.

I'm now absolutely certain that alcohol just isn't for me and I can't even have 1. I'm just not built for this.