Considering seeing someone right after ending engagement.

I met my fiancé about two years ago, we just instantly clicked. We were quite sexually active but as time went by I realized if I didn’t initiate sex. He wouldn’t. Only in the mornings when most males wake up ready to go. I brought it up quite often and he’d initiate it for maybe 2-4 days and go right back to nothing.

I eventually just stopped, lost interest in trying. I first thought maybe something was wrong with me.. after time went by and many many guys hitting on me I still remained faithful. My eyes never gazed because I truly did love him, he was like my best friend.

I decided to snoop and came upon pics and text before he met me confirming what I suspected about his sexuality. I do not believe he is bi, I’ve dated a bisexual guy and lack of sex was never an issue.

Now my fiancé refuses to accept the ending of the relationship and pretty much says he’s definitely interested in me sexually.. and I think he actually believes love can overcome sexual attraction. I however am only 29 years of age and I do not want to be in a sexless marriage for the rest of my life.

Two nights ago, I went out for drinks. I noticed a man staring at me across the bar… when I tell ya my heart skipped a beat. He was so hot, guys have approached in public before but I’ve never been interested. Even if I find them attractive… throughout the night we were smiling and sharing glances. My friend noticed this and confronted me. I was very honest, it’s been two years since I’ve had passion. All I’ve been thinking about these past two days was this completely stranger. Sexual thoughts. How much I miss being “taken” with passion and excitement. But I do still live with my fiancé… he still wants to keep trying and promised for the 200th time he’ll initiate more. He denies his sexuality and deems it just “his past”. I do have some love for him but I guess I fell out of love if I’m thinking of another man.

I want to go back to the bar and approach him but then I feel guilty. From what I noticed that night he knows the owner…