Do we ever feel happy again?

For real… I’m 13+6 and I haven’t been happy since the HG started at like 4 weeks. I feel like I’m counting down the days for this pregnancy to be over with and it makes me really sad because this is my last pregnancy. I just can’t enjoy it. Xonvea’s stopped working but that was prescribed by the hospital, GP doesn’t believe in pregnant women receiving medication as “the neonate can’t consent.”

I try explaining my situation, my BMI is 40.1 and I’m 5ft 6 and from the minute I wake up to the minute I fall asleep is dry heaving & debilitating nausea. I’ve been horizontal for like 7 weeks. the advice has just been “well due to your BMI being so high you need to move more to stop blood clots, push through the sickness” I would if I could. I just wanna be happy. It’s making me insanely depressed.