so fucking sick of my life

the title. so fucking sick of never ending torture. i am crippled by fucking antipsychotic side effects and can't live independently. i can't even fucking wake up independently. i live with abusers in a shitty flat next to screaming alcoholics. the only thing that i do is working on a job which i suck at and might get fired any time. but i work such a job that i don't even get payment right now because i have to work extra for all the sick time, i am fucking broke. i am also uncontrollably gaining weight from AP.

my life is a living hell. i fucking hate suffering and this fucking universe for being such a piece of shit. i wish euthanasia was legal, life is just a fucking torture.